April 11, 2007

Happy new month,it shall be well with us all in jesus name and God will continue to meet us at our point of our needs.The last one week have been full of challenges of life that i cant even think of updating my blog but i thank God for his mercies.Despite all the odds against me and plan of devil,Iam now working in Apapa though its quite a challenge and devil is at work but i made the decision with the mind that God will perfect everything for me.I leave you with this poem:

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

by Kit McCallum


ababoypart2 said...

Deep, really deep poem. Good luck with job in Apapa

Sherri said...

u go girl!
i am very proud of you! i pray God to grant you all you need(health love strength wisdom) to succeed on the job and on the homefront.
remember,you are where you are for a purpose and as you allow God to work in your life everyday the journey becomes an expedition (you might find yourself along the way)it's okay to have doubts and questions it's even okay to feel weak and overwhelmed.because from questions we find answers and truths,from doubts we find faith in the Most High and from weakness we find amazing strength.girl, you are nobody's doormat you are far too precious for that.

Emi (life)

Waffarian said...

Well done girl, So proud of you!
Keep us updated!

anijawife said...

Thanks for being there.The price for this self discovery is huge and iam scared myself of the consequence at the long run but i need peace,love and have to get back my dignity.I ve always been thinking about others without considering myself and at the end of the day,everybody see me as a stupid woman and treat me with no respect.Life is too short to be wasted,while iam alive-i need to care for myself too not just others,i weep inside when i see what my kids are going through but they have been wonderful.Will update when iam in a better mood and situation permit.Thanks for the love


I just got your comment on my blog. At the time I was writing a new one and after reading your post for today, I sure wish I would have had it on a little sooner. Maybe you could go back and read the post I just put on my blog. It might be of some help to you. I sure hope so. May God bless you connie from Texas

uknaija said...

Congratulations on taking up the job in Apapa my sister. I wish you well

Mrs Somebody said...

Congratulations on your new job! Way to go girl!

Anonymous said...


Do not beat yourself up about sacrifices you and your kids make. As a mother you can talk about how you want your children to be happy and successful or you can live it.Children learn more from what they see you do than what you say. They will come to understand that you are doing the best thing you know how.

Take care of YOU.

Peace and Love,Reader in Toroto.